Mind if I ask?

Are your thoughts on me
Solely?
Is your mind drifting on me
Imaginatively?
Does your interests retain on me
Constantly?
Does your attention remain only of me
Permanently?
Would you stay in love with me
Faithfully?
Would you care about me
Sincerely?
Mind if I ask all these?
I'd just have to let out all my fears.
I hope, to you, it's fine
Just want to express this love of mine
Fearing that I might lose you,
that would really leave me feeling blue...

Lost

You came into my life
Taking part in my daily journey
I've noticed you since then
But for you, I was just a nobody
As time passes through
You mean more to me
And to my astonishment,
I mean something to you too!
Or so I thought...
Something's building up then
As we frequently see each other
My feelings getting closer
To the trap, I feared never existed
Then it came to pass
You confess your love to me
Oh, it was music to my ears!
But away from my knowledge
It already created a wound
Deep down in my heart.
You were honest to me
And I appreciated it much
You told me something...
That so confused me
I thought I mean more to you
Thank anybody could ever know?
What then did you mean
You'd go away from us both?
Since then I had doubts
Do you really love me?
Or was it just a dream
That I'd better wake up
Before it digs up a hole
Right down to my heart's deepest core.
Life isn't fair!
It gives me someone so dear
Then it gets it back
When I've fallen enough
Guess I'll just have to give way
Though it means the pain shall stay
I'll just have to let go
To set you free, is what I know.

Sense and Sensibility

I've known you long enough
But just some pieces of stuff
Though you're miles away
Here in my heart, you stay.

You know me, I know you
My dreams, will they ever come true?
Could you be thinking of me too
The way I think about you?

My feeling for you, I've known so long
Yet I thought it's all been gone
But since we last saw each other
Thoughts of you, I just can't get over.

Old sensations keep creeping back
In my heart they knock
I gladly opened the door
Right to the deepest of all core.

Am I so?

Am I so...

Assuming-
that you have a feeling
for me and no less?

Hoping-
that you could see me
look at me as more than friends?

Wanting-
that I could not want less-
than you, could ever be?

Understanding-
that I approved of your reasons
which even asks myself for doing so?

Dreaming-
that I could have you
in no sooner than I thought?

I hope not.

The Love in Me

Where are thou my loveth?
When I seek of thy presence
Whom could you be with?
Wishingyou're here with yours truly.

I've searched a lot on you-
Be it presence, friendship, care,
But most of all your love too-
Guess I've found a little of each!

Being able to see you, my love
Lifts up millions of worries
From deep within me and beyond
You are that and I hope you'll ever be.

Hence, no one ever in my life
Had such an impact in me as you do
A bitter-sweet urg'd pressure
In my heart as well as my mind.

How is it that I can't hate you?
In the things that you do
How could that be, how could it be true-that
I always understand your reasons and you?

Could it be...

Could it be,
That you like me
Like me in other way
not just a crony.

Could it possibly be,
That all you've shown me
Have a touch of magic in it
That's gonna blow my heart away.

Could it just be,
A mere reflection in me
An image of my sensibility
That's directed for you only.

So near yet so far

The presence of you so near
The picture of you so clear
Yet, why is it that you're so far
The possibility is so blur.

Eversince we've been friends
My heart, to you, I commenced
Such a nice pal you are
Yet why is it that your feeling's so far.

I know you, you know me
In all angles my feeling's free
However, I just can't reach you
Which resulted in blue.

It makes me happy

Whenever you are near,
My heart burst out with cheer
It makes me happy.
Whenever you are far
Yet there is no bar
It makes me happy
Whenever we talk to each other
Words in my lips, just can't utter
It makes me happy.
Whenever you're engross
My heart leaps across
It makes me happy.
Whenever you smile
With dimples dazzling a mile
It makes me happy.
Whenever you call me by my name
And yet nothing seems the same
It makes me happy
All of which I mentioned
Turning in all directions
It makes me happy,
Happy as I want to be.

Hopeless Hopes

When feeling hopeless of a chance
Just thinking in a trance
What's there when you said:
"Why not wait instead?"
When in a dance, you're my partner
Yet suddenly we decided on another
What's there when you felt down
You said: "It's her that I'm bound!"
When my eyes do wander
In our room, I ponder
What's there that my visions seem
To have a connection with yours therein.
When we're walking side by side
My feelings I'm trying to hide
With a song that our pals sang
And so with you singing along
A song that wishes to live life long
With your loved one, you belong
Oh how my heart leapt in joy!
As I smiled with coy.

When

When will I call you mine?
Oh! Please say when - or
is that time coming still?
or am I only waiting for nothing...

When will the time come?
that you'll notice my existence
am I only waiting until
my heart goes on aching?

When will I have the chance?
of sharing something special
to you, my dearest
Can I ask one thing, when?

When we two parted

Behind my happy eyes
sadness creeping inside
we parted like broken ice
still, am I trying to hide?
What one can find deep...
into my mind and into my heart
that's for you to keep
when we two part.
Tears each struggling to fall
in the midst of darkness
in the comfort of four-sided wall
Glad for the evening's crisp coolness.
When we two parted...
When we two parted...

Distance in Between

Seeing each other, the chances are
getting dimmer and dimmer
Now that each has taken
a different road from the other.

Seeing each other, looking into those eyes
merely a second, away it turns
to another direction-but,
to the eyes that seem to burn.

Oh how it seems!
everybody's taking thou away
embraced within-the friendship
that once we shared and tend to keep.

Why you?

Why thou, I've chosen?
though my heart's achin'
You, who bring me tears!
Yet I've concealed my fears.

I've asked myself with anger
why you, of all the others?
Thou who broke my heart into two
Nevertheless, can I blame you?

You've known nothing
about me feeling that I've been keeping
Still, can I blame -
The man whom I never felt the same?

You who stand above all
Why you, I'm destined to fall
My emotions to you that incline
Are suppressed behind.

Why you who captured my heart
In my life, you've become a part
In my memory you're restored
in it, you're You that I'm not to ignore.

Every single day without you
Oh how I feel blue...
What I'm saying are all true
that's why I'm asking, why you?

Because I love you

When feeling sad and blue
With just a smile from you
Commences a blank thought
Surge of joy! I perceive.
When there's a way to have you
But knowing it might disturb you
I doubted on pursuing the means
But can't help to wish for it
When lying awake at night
Thinking of you seemed right
Yet I thought you might be bothered
So I forced myself to sleep instead.
When learning you have someone
Hopelessness in me acted upon
But later on, I got to accept
I did it to set you free.
Hearing you both separated
I felt sorry for what happened
Though I would only betray myself
If saying, I'm not happy, because I am.
I ponder about you every now and then
You, who give me strength
You, whom I cared so much
You, who showed me hope
You, whom I so love
No wonder why I did all these
Because I love you!
And that made the difference.

Still

Ask why, ask how
Seeing you, I yearn for a vow
A then-crowded place
Turn out to be in peace
Seems like you and me in private
Staring, still, in quiet.
The wind so tranquil
Setting me in a spell.
I long for your love
That'll place me high up above
For all those days that passed
For all the days that comes
And for all the days approaching
You remain in my heart aching.

Ang Nadarama

Ano nga ba, itong nadarama?
pag nandiyan ka, aking sinta
kaba rito, kaba riyan
bakit nga ba pinagpapawisan
sa t'wing lalapit ka, bakit nga ba?
ikaw lang talaga.

Sadya nga bang ikaw na ang mamahalin?
wala na bang ibang gugustuhin
dito sa aking puso't damdamin
ikaw lang ang nanaisin.

Ngunit hanggang panaginip na lang ba?
ang pagmamahal ko sa iyo, aking sinta
mga pangarap na nais makamit
ngunit ang tadhana, di mo mapipilit.

Ayokong mangarap ng napakataas
at baka madapa't di na maka-iwas
tama na'ng makita ka't mamasdan
sa puso ko'y saya ang nararamdaman.

The Fragile Heart

I know you'll never be mine
but still I'm waiting behind
For you to notice, I guess?
It gives my heart stress...

Whenever you're near, it leaps!
whenever you're there, it peeps...
I just don't know what it is about you
that made it happen through and through.

Don't you notice?
Won't you ever notice?
My fragile heart is in pain!
It's making me insane

You're near yet too far
it seems there's always a bar
that made it impossible to glance
just a glimpse of chance.